That you've fallen.
That you're broken.
That you're no longer whole.
And i feel ashamed that even with a patient husband, a precious daughter, a supportive family, many genuine and close friends, i still fall to the hands of depression.
Sorry to everyone who love me.
I will be better. Please stay around to see me when i'm better.
And to anyone else who feel alone like you're in a dark room caged by the darkness and fear in your head, where you don't see sunlight.. Remember you are never alone.
Be strong for the ones who love you, be strong for yourself. I am telling myself as i tell you.
I might have fallen to depression this time.. But i will bounce back. I will be fine.
Thank you Joshua, Thank you Meredith, Thank You, to everyone of my family member.
Thank you to my friends.
Thank you to the readers who stick around even when i've been such a negative ball of mess for so long.
Thank you to even the people who pushed me to where i am today..
You have taught me a very valuable lesson, that is to learn how i cannot trust anyone who call themselves a friend. And for that i thank you again.
I am not a victim, i am a fucking warrior. I will take my medications and i will chill the heck out.
But there's no medication for a black heart that sees no compassion so i only wish the best for you all.
Wanted to do a cover of this song for my guest-singer appearance at Starker's @ Zhongshan Park on the 17th (I'd be there 8.30pm so see you if you're free to pop by, i'd be singing a few songs. Totally not pro so you've been warned haha).. But i can't get it done properly. But it's okay. I re-shoot a lot more times trying to do better and trying to chill but this first two takes were the best of all.
Cox even when i am weak, i wanna be strong.
I can't do any work now. I can't do anything now. I can only be with people who make me feel alive and loved and safe. I can't function as usual but it will all be over.