Sorry for sometimes, mummy is not strong enough..
Sorry for some days, i carry you to my face and just bury myself in your warmth to cry my heart out.. For you are mummy's source of strength when i can find none within myself..
You are mummy's everything.
And for you, mummy will do the right thing..
I am going to listen to your daddy and go seek treatment for depression..
I never wanna admit i might possibly be depressed cox i feel it's something to be ashamed of for myself cox i always pride myself to be super positive and cheerful.. But now it's like.. "Why are you so weak?" It's been too long. And i really wanna spend the time ahead with you and really be with you.. And not have my soul drifting somewhere dark and helpless..
People at work can do what they want to mummy.. But mummy will stand for the right thing and stand for myself.. So when you grow up, you know to do that for yourself too.
To stand up against the wrong. To stand for what you believe in, for what is right, that does not hurt others. And most importantly, to do all of the above, even if it's hard.
On your first birthday, mummy wish for you to grow healthy, happy, caring, kind and courageous.
Some day you will grow up, and you will form thoughts of your own about issues.. About people, about things, about life.. You will decide if you wanna wash your hair today.. Or not. You will decide who to fall in love with and i bet mummy and daddy will have no way to change your opinion on what you love judging by the way you refuse to give us the toy knife in exchange with the toy teacup haha.
Now you're surrounded by people who love you.. Becox they are also people who love mummy and daddy.. They are our family, our friends, our loved ones.. Be nice to them too. Take care of them. Help them if they ever need a hand becox they've helped mummy, daddy and you a lot, whether you know it or not. They have all helped and loved us in their own ways.
But as you grow.. You will meet people who will hurt your feelings.. People who don't think for your good.. That's okay becox not everyone is to love everyone, don't take it to heart. Be nice to them anyway..
And then you might also meet people who wanna do harm to you or your loved ones.. Stand up against those people. Don't let them go without teaching them a lesson. "The world is a dangerous place to live; not because of those who do evil, but because of those who look on and do nothing"
Do something good for the world, one good deed at a time, Meredith. Believe in yourself.. You are special.. You can make a change in the world.. Cox you already changed daddy and mummy's life.. By bringing so much joy and happiness to us.. Daddy and mummy are always, always proud of you..
Daddy and mummy love you.. Always =')))
This was you at 5 weeks old in mummy's tummy haha.
9 months.. Isn't it amazing..? ='))
Papa and mama waiting for your arrival..
When mama first held you.. You are a little creation of miracles.. Many many miracles.. For your eyes to be formed properly, for your heart to pump, for your brain to function.. For everything in you.. You are life's miracle.. Always feel that way and always remind others around you next time to feel good about themselves.. They are someone's baby too.. Like you are precious to mommy ='))
The first picture your yeye saw that made him so worried cox "why so ugly" LOLOLOLOLOL.
The first picture you posted on your instagram HAHA.
Daddy's little angel =))
Yup correct, diao your ganma like that all the time, do it for mummy hahaha.
You are very blessed with people who love you more than they love mummy hahaha. Si yi, Niao Yi, San Yi, Er Yi, ganma, yeye and more.. =) Grow up to be a good girl okay..
When you were so tiny..
But your attitude was so big LOL.
Niao yi's fingers and you..
Your laughter and your stares.. At 3am =_=
Mummy used to be able to carry you with one hand haha.. To give you a little bath near the window where the sunlight is.. Every morning, 7am.. =))) Now you always 赖床 until 11am =_="
Remember to always have fun with people haha but don't always allow them to put your mummy's maternity bra on you lolol. Especially not if you wanna buy 4D and toto.
Less than a month old and learning how to smile for a picture haha.
Daddy's little lost kitten!
"What are you talking about mom.. Your caption is so bad i can't even.."
Oh god hahahaha. Mummy used to think you're super cute even when you used to look like that LOL.
"What do you mean?" Nothing i mean you're super cuteeee~
"Okay i like what i hear now"
"But if i hear you joke about my looks again, i won't pull back my punches!"
Meredith, this is you at 1 year old..
You love to explore, you're almost fearless (except when mummy wanna walk away haha), you're very loud, you love to play with your soft toys (cox they are basically mummy LOL) and you love the indoor playground. You really love animals so daddy, mummy and godma brought you to the zoo for your birthday.. You had such a good time.. Mummy didn't bother to take much pictures becox mummy really wanna be with you.. And remember every squeak and squeal you let out when you see the animals that you've only seen from your books and flash cards before haha..
You also love yogurt and pumpkin. Fruits are your default favourite cox you don't know what's candies and chocolates yet but the adults are breaking mummy's defence against candies and chocolates soon.. They say it's about time haha. I'd just have to deal with that hahaha!
Can't believe it's been a year.. You are mummy's source of joy, motivation and direction..
Remember that daddy and mummy love you with all our hearts.. =') Thank you for being here and for being ours..